darkness comes thru cracked blinds; into a world I call mine.
remembering those emotions for reference only
to examine these mistakes I tried to leave behind.
the weekly headache
I use almost like a tool.
I bend to break
a new version of you.
been a long time coming
a cure burning.
the same old story
I keep churning.
but for reference only.
I read somewhere that every wall’s a door to something new
Well if that’s true-why can’t i get through?
Cause I’m not who I thought I was
And I can’t explain
But it feels like…I’m falling through a hole in my heart
Just falling through a hole in my heart
Don’t try to reach for nothing at all
Everything that keeps me together is falling apart,
I’ve got this thing that I consider my only art of fucking people over.
People hiding their real faces. Each one running their rat races;
behind each flower there grows a weed, in their world of make-believe.
Everyday just comes and goes.
It’s the light from your sunless room
Scattered in pieces all around you.
Recession of these thoughtless forms
Reciting every line as a way of life and a way of death in time
We heard Ian Curtis kill himself again in your bed.
In these 24 hours we stretched into a room filled with Heart and Soul.
This is the way.
Step inside and march in the procession of empty hearts.
Love has torn us apart.
It’s a part of me a part of you in time we’re falling apart together.
American Nightmare | AM/PM
I was counting
The good things about this city
The only good thing is you are not here
When you’re around it
Makes it hard to be what I need to be
I was trying to breathe
I was dying to breathe
I was hoping I’d never
Have to write this song again
The kind of song that makes
You want to hang
Your headached - head
And I was hoping
That I would never fall in love again
‘Cause that would be the end
Of everything (you’re everything)
My parents fell in love
And all I got was life
And all I ever wanted
Was to not be alone
I’ve been wearing this new outfit called
“Quit while you’re ahead”
Your smiles are the end
Your eyes are the end
I was hoping I’d never
Have to write this song again
The kind of song that makes
You want to hang
Your headached - head
And I was hoping
That I would never fall in love again
‘Cause that would be the end
Of everything (you’re everything)
Just hang your head
Just close your eyes
Just hide your heart
Hide your heart
I believe that when I’m gone
My love will live in song
This is not where I wanted to be
I wanted to be
And I believe that when I’m gone
My love will live in song
This is not the life I wanted to live
I wanted to live
I wanted to live
Standing on the edge, casting lots to set me up before you knock me down,
off the summer’s edge and drown me.
We’re betting on our own lives, making up for all the time we lost.
Oh I’ll break them down, no mercy shown.
Heaven knows, it’s got to be this time.
Avenues all lined with trees.
Picture me and then you start watching; watching forever.
I’m working on leaving.
I’m working on leaving the living.
Love you more than everything.
Loved it more than anything;
Loved everything more than anything.
I’m working on drinking, I’m working on driving,
I’m working on driving my dreams.
I’m working on leaving. I’m working on leaving the living.
In Heaven everything is fine. In heaven everything’s alright.
